Random Thoughts: A Heart to Heart Chat

I’m just taking a moment to take a breath, and have a heart to heart chat. Perhaps with myself, perhaps with whoever is reading this or perhaps noone cares about what I am blogging about. I enjoy typing words, letting my thoughts flow as it go. Sometimes it’s the best way to work some issues out – to have them in words out there in front of you. Sometimes it works as a great reminder for yourself of how you’ve spent your time, what you have thought about, when you look back at the post years later.

Sometimes I feel like I am trying to do too much; at other times I feel like I am not pushing myself hard enough. I know there’s a lot more I can do, and people are asking me to do things. The thing is that I know that I can do them all, but sometimes I just don’t give a damn. The fiance calls me a beta person – I disagree; I think that I am so beta, that I’m almost clearly gamma. I can’t sit still and everytime I’m thinking about one thing my mind just explodes and goes in ten different ways.

My wedding is in a year or so; I have to lose 20kg (I am about 20kg over the healthy weight), invite 250 people. I just got into a quite prestigious but part-time Masters degree programme. I want to look for a new job because of many reasons that I cannot explain online. My family’s little business has had a little trouble these few days so I have to chip in to help as I am the ‘responsible’ one in the family. I like to blog – I find it quite relaxing so I wouldn’t like to stop. I also have the same 24hours as everyone else. I don’t know how I am going to do it all but I hope I can.

Sometimes I forget to breathe and I come out of it panting and slightly lightheaded.

Random Thoughts: A Tale of Sadness, Pride, and A Need to Start Living Fully

This is not a makeup related post.

If you’ve been reading the news, you’d know that the founding father of Singapore – Mr Lee Kuan Yew – died this week. And today was his funeral. For most people, this is not a big deal. Honestly, as a Singaporean, I didn’t even give it much thought before, when he was still alive.

But after he died, a lot of things came to my mind.

Like how lucky I am to be a Singaporean; and I wouldn’t have what I have today if not for him.

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Random Thoughts #14: Stranded in Paradise


Have received a couple of comments lately on my blog but I have not been able to respond at all… so sorry! Just wanted to give a quick update that I’m actually stranded in paradise…

I’m currently stuck in Boracay, a small island in the Philippines, with a typhoon of warning signal 2 headed towards us, or rather pretty near us. All boats leaving the island has been suspended, and all flights out has been cancelled. I was supposed to fly out earlier but since it’s an island, there’s no way out of here. I’m not really sure to be happy that I’m stuck here in a beautiful hotel or be scared.

The worst part of the typhoon is suppose to pass by tonight – so all activities in the hotel has been halted, including dinner service! So the hotel is bringing us packed dinner and we are supposed to stay indoors from 7pm when the worst part of the impact hits. All the TV networks are down, but amazingly the internet and electricity are still working though I’m not sure for how long. We’ve lost electricity for short periods of time through the last 2 days so hopefully it won’t get too bad.

It’s been raining the whole day today and the trees are swaying so hard with the waves looking increasingly strong. Did I mention the hotel is right by the beach? Most of the rooms with glass doors and big glass windows on the lower floors have been boarded up with sandbags at various stairways.

I’ve never experienced typhoons before so now I’m getting a little bit of what it feels like. I’m glad that we’re not directly in the path of the typhoon and I’m thankful that I’m staying in a nice hotel where it actually feels pretty safe with all the precautions that I can see the staff taking. I can’t imagine what it’s like for the people living in the areas that are directly in the path of the typhoon, or in little shacks that won’t hold up as well. It must be very terrifying in their shoes. I hope that they can stay safe.

Meanwhile, hope everyone had a great week! Stay safe!

Random Thoughts #13: Change is Coming

Not sure how many of you have noticed this, but I have been tinkering with my blog, moving things around, adding categories/sections/links and basically just trying to edit it the way I want it be – with a proper ‘filing’ system so that it’s easier to navigate. I’m a little OCD like that.

Along with my new job, I’m also changing a little of what I will be writing about. There’s been some things that I’ve always wanted to write about or share, but just didn’t have the time and I don’t want to talk about some of these things lightly. You might say that it’s sharing knowledge or just a conversation with myself as I learn about some of these things too along the way.

I actually really love to write. It was my childhood dream to be a writer, not a number cruncher. In the end I followed my head and did what I excelled in naturally, which is dealing with numbers, instead of following my heart. So I diverted from my real dream.

Now is my chance to really write. I will write anything to my heart desire. I’m just not sure – should I write it here, or start a new blog to write about all other non-beauty topics? I’ve given this quite a lot of thought and I thought it’s simpler to just add the new stuff into this blog. What do you think?

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On another note, while I was thinking of how to revamp this blog, I decided to take a look at some of my old posts. Some of my old “random thoughts” left me feeling… well, not very good. I felt that I did not do what I said to do last year – that I have continued to let myself degenerate.

I need to push myself harder, and to run faster. Let’s hope next year this time, I would be better, stronger and most importantly, much happier.

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Please let know if you have any thoughts/comments!

Random Thoughts #12: Moving On

Dear readers, if you have been following this blog for a while, you might have noticed that I’ve been upset, really upset at work for quite some time. There’s been a ton of office politics that has nothing to do with the actual work – a lot of people leaving the company, no management oversight, infighting, mind games, badly communicated corporate decisions, with very inexperienced supervisors. I was also picked on at times, and it makes me feel sad because I have contributed a lot professionally. Now it pains me to go to work everyday and along the way, I have lost my mojo.

I am finally free. I have found a new job – a new challenge, something that’s indirectly related to what I’m doing now so I am not very sure if I am up to it. I’m terrified and excited. But I know if I don’t try, I may never know if I will be good at it. The pay is not much more and probably underpaid for the role, but I am inexperienced at it so I’m glad they gave me the chance to try and I think, it’s important to do something interesting and challenging rather than rot away doing something I hate.

I’m starting the new job in the new year so I might be posting less next year but while I’m serving out my notice, I should be posting a lot and regularly. I want to just share that life is short and I regret wasting the last 3 years at my current job – I was there for 5 years and I should have left after 2 years of learning what I could there and left when there was nothing more to learn. I stayed because I wanted regular work hours and my boss was nice to me. These are not good reasons to stay in a job because bosses can change (which happened), or their characters can change (which also happened), and regular work hours also make you a regular employee.

I wish that everyone will push for more in life. Let’s hope that everything will turn out well. 🙂

Random Thoughts #11: A Moment to Rest


I wanted to just put up a quick note to let all or any readers know that I’m going away for a holiday starting today – for a week or so – so I won’t be responding to any comments, but please still feel free leave a comment and I will respond when I get back!

I’ve been running on low recently so this holiday is very well timed. Actually I really need a change of work environment but before I find something new, holidays are my only way to stay sane. I can’t explain how low my mood has been; it’s too much to handle – I’m usually a happy person and I can’t deal with so much work politics, all that hate and backstabbing and underhanded, even borderline unlawful, ways to achieve a goal. I believe in doing things the right way.

Thank goodness I’m going to the land of skincare for amazing flawless porcelain skin (can anyone guess where it is!) so that should cheer me up for a good while! I’m hoping to smuggle back a truckload of skincare products, face masks and cute little makeup items – I said smuggle because the bf is going to be keeping tabs on me! I’ve been overdoing my makeup/skincare shopping lately since I’m a stress shopper so he’s got a tight rein on me at the moment. Eeks.

I have a few posts that are pre-written and will automatically be uploaded whilst I’m gone so I’m guessing noone will even realise that I’m actually on holiday… please still feel free to read, comment, anything! Adios! Many hugs and kisses. See you later!